Dammit.


it was never meant to end
and now that it is over
i have only three words left to say
I love you

you can push me away
try to keep me down
you can break my heart, but
I still love you

it is not like it seems
this is not the end
I still want you to know, that
I love you

you can try to break me
rip my heart out of my chest
but in the end
I still love you

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Home


home is not the same anymore
has become a strange place
i’m not sure what to think
of all these feelings
wherever i walk
you left your traces behind,
laying on the floor
behind doors i don’t dare to open

when i close my eyes
all i see is you
running through my mind
like nothing has changed

my bed feels empty
without your warmth
it’s hard to fall asleep
when i don’t hear you breathing
wherever I be
the presence your mind
keeps chasing me
like monuments i don’t dare to tear down!

when i close my eyes
all i see is you
running through my mind
like nothing has changed
sitting on my lap
kissing me gently
holding my head
like as if it were
the only thing for you
like if i were
the only thing for you

when i close my eyes
all i see is you
running through my mind
like nothing has changed

home is not the same anymore
it has become a strange place
without you it seems so empty
and i don’t know what to do.

when i close my eyes
all i see is you
running through my mind
like nothing has changed
sitting on my lap
kissing me gently
holding my head
like as if it were
the only thing for you
like if i were
the only thing for you

Sebastian

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Dreams


hold out
walk the line
someone will come
to save your soul
or maybe not
does it really matter?
your kept
in the prison
of your own reality

time passes by
it’s been months
sheets flying through the air
and it feels like
only seconds left
the great disaster
is about to come
with a blink of an eye
you’re gone

hold out
walk the line
don’t question
the road your on
someone will come
and save your soul
or maybe you’ll die alone
does it really matter?
it’s already over now

i try to chase
the seconds running by
i’m not fast enough
and i am left behind
i cannot stop
what i have begun
and so i see
your face again
i wish i could right here

again and again
we meet in my head
i lose my mind over
the kiss we share
it feels so wrong
and still it’s the only thing
i hope for
every time i close my eyes
i hope to return.

Sebastian

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Me Vs. You. Vs. We.


So, i just composed this little song, I might post a demo when i have recorded it, but since it’s the first thing I’ve written in like 10 days, I thought I share it.It’s maybe a bit rough at some places, but it’s pretty solid, I’d say.

winter’s over now
and i found out
that with best friends
i don’t have to fear a thing
they keep me livin’
at all times
they cheer me up
when I’m down

is it me, is it you
it’s not “we” for sure
and it doesn’t really matter
I found a them to replace
the you I lost
is it me, is it you
it’s not a we for sure

i tried so hard
to stay faithful
to be what you’d expect
not seeing
that i lost myself
being your perfect prince
they showed me what it’s like
to be just me

you don’t like
what I’ve become
that’s okay
cause I don’t like
what you’re trying to be
I don’t need your approval
cause I got my friends
and they like me like I am.

is it me, is it you
it’s not we for sure
and it doesn’t really matter,
i found a them to replace
the you I lost
is it me, is it you
it’s not a we for sure

is it me is it you
who knows the truth
it doesn’t really matter
I found someone to replace
the part you played
is it me or is it you
it’s no longer we for sure.

Sebastian

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Remember Me


So, I just had to think of a poem I written a long time ago, and I felt like sharing it.

it’s three am and I’m still awake
writing more lines than i ever should
one after another, my soul floats
out of my fingers into the sheet
stained with sweat and ink
this is my life, my devotion
writing til my fingers bleed
watching the candle burning down

when I turn around, go to sleep
the things I write become alive
haunting me through the night
they’re like monsters beneath my bed
trying to scare me away
got no mother to run to
so I spent the nights wide awake
and write about my ghosts

I write too much about you,
to less about me
i promise this will be the last one
or maybe the next. Maybe I’ll never stop
writing about what you’ve done
if this is my fate, i’ll stand to it
two more lines too write, maybe three
One last to make it eight.

Sometimes I fear i write to much
show the world whats inside of me
but i can’t stop but write
it’s running out of me
I feel so free liberated
nearly french without a terrible
way to speak
it’s the way I think, the way I feel

what I write will live on
on sheets and in some minds
it’s my legacy
I leave the world written lines
so that they might remember me
how I was, and what I’ve become
How I lived and what I felt
Read and Remember me.

Sebastian

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Say Goodbye


say goodbye
cause I’m getting rid of you
of every single piece that’s left
of every single last regret
I pack our letters, pictures
and burn them with my memories
the only thing i cannot burn
is you.

thanks to everything
you did for me
but I need to let go
of what is left of you
there is no sense in
holding out
but knowing that
is not enough

so say goodbye
cause I’m getting rid of you
of every single piece that’s left
of every single last regret
i pack our letters, pictures
burn them with my memories
the only thing i cannot burn
is you

tell me what it’s like
to be the always in disguise
if you ever love again
just tell him what you told me
cause the words sound just fine
but do you mean them?
I hope you do

I wish I could be with you
but that’s not my path
not anymore
I don’t know
if you’re alone out there
I hope you’re safe
I still care about you
I know you don’t

so say goodbye
cause I’m getting rid of you
of every single piece that’s left
of every single last regret
I pack the letters that I wrote
burn them with my memories
the only thing that stays
is you

tell me what it’s like
to be always in disguise
if you ever love again
just tell him what you told me
cause the way it sounds is just fine
just make sure that this time
you mean it.

so say goodbye
cause I’m getting rid of you
of every single piece that’s left
of every single last regret
I pack your letters, words
burn them with my memories
the only thing that lasts
is you

Sebastian

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Your Sorry Ain’t Reach A Heart


So, since I couldn’t sleep, I began to write, and i finished a new demo. And since I’m a bit of an attention whore I want to share it with the world.

Excuse the crappy playing, that was more or less a one take and it’s in the middle of the night, so, yeah. I might re-record the demo tomorrow, depending on how I feel.

Your Sorry Ain’t Reach a Heart

love me, kill me
i don’t care
cause right now
my heart’s undecided
my head’s a mess
full of sweet regrets
and i don’t want to take a bet
if i make it alive

i could ask you why
but what would it bring
it wouldn’t bring us back
it won’t bring me sleep

ooooh
your sorry aint reach a heart
nooo
it’s too late for that
you can’t undo what you’ve done
no matter how hard you try

you could ask yourself why
but would you
but would it
change a thing?

ooooh
your sorry aint reach a heart
noo
it’s too late for that
you can’t undo what you’ve done
no matter how hard you try

and that is why
i still sing songs about you
cause my past
keeps chasing me
i can’t run
and i can’t sleep
cause every time i close my eyes
you are there

ooooh
your sorry aint reach a heart
noo
it’s too late for that
you can’t undo what you’ve done
no matter how hard you try

Sebastian.

PS: The title is a riddle. get it?

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Don’t Blame Me When You Realize That I’m No Longer Part Of Your Life


So. Today I got my thousandth hit. (Strange word.) and I also got a new poem for ya. Isn’t that great?

when i start shouting
screaming out words of pain
don’t turn you fucking head away
listen to what words i say
you can call out what you want
but don’t you dare to blame ME
just b’cause you won’t face the shame, SEE
what you made of me!

let’s be honest
you got nothing new to say
just the usual
words of blame
our conversation ends
before we even start
go, dig deep in your heart
til you find what’s wrong

when i start shouting
screaming out words of pain
don’t turn your fuckin head away
listen to sound of my voice
you can call out what you want
but don’t you dare to blame, ME
just cause you won’t face the shame, See
what you made of this

just one time i want
to look into your eyes and know
that you say the truth
just like you promised
trust is hard to earn
and you failed all along
this is one last song
to show you what it’s like

just one time i want
to be sure that what you said
was not one goddamn lie
just like you always said
trust is hard to earn
and you failed here all along
this is one last song
to show you that what it’s like

when i start shouting
screaming words of pain
dont turn your fucking head away
listen to what i got to say
you can call out what you want
but don’t you dare to blame ME
just because you won’t face the shame, see
what you made of me.

Sebastian

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cold hands, colder steel


cold steel in cold hands
just what your heart deserves
tell me to come back
i tell you to fuck off
cause what you’ve done
is nothing i could forgive
i don’t need you to be happy
and i don’t want you back

i’ve seen a thousand times
where you lay your head down to sleep
i could find it with closed eyes
i remind you on what you’ve done
i hope you don’t forget
i carve those words into your body
with a blade made of sin
you marked me, now i marked you

cold steel in cold hands
just what your heart deserves
tell me to come back
i tell you to fuck off
cause what you’ve done
is nothing i could forgive
i don’t need you to be happy
and i don’t want you back

i know what’s going on here
and i know what gone wrong
i know the last word’s not spoken yet
and i know what you’re thinking
i know that this is not what it seems
and i know that you’ll regret
what you’ve done, one day
you will realize the worst mistake of your fucking life

cold steel in cold hands
just what your heart deserves
tell me to come back
and i tell you to fuck off
cause what you’ve done
is too much to forgive
i don’t need you to be happy
and i don’t want you back

Sebastian

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From a Marked Heart


So, it appears I’m not done writing, and that’s somehow good and bad at the same time, but okay i guess. I do however play a lot with my guitar, and do come up with some pretty cool stuff. Well, however, I’ve just written something new and since it’s so quiet around here, I thought I might as well share it.

we watch the sun rise
in the far east
leave our sorrows
resting in the past
we leave for a better future
a better life
no more hurt feelings
or trying times.

we reach a field
filled with flowers
unreal beings
in a heartless world
we seek to sleep
but are kept awake
a million thoughts
this ends now

so please tell me
what’s my purpose?
how do i deserve this?
my mind is stuck
running in circles
how can we solve this?
is it right
or already worthless?

with bloodshot eyes, baby
i watch the world go down
i sit right next to you
i’d still let you drown
with bloodshot eyes, baby
i watch the world explode
in a fabulous firework
our time’s just borrowed

i still wonder
what’s my purpose
how do i deserve this
my mind is stuck
running in circles
how can we solve this
your words sound right
but still they’re worthless

i bent over and pick
a flower just like you
made of fragile thoughts
not more than a shadow of my past
this is what left of you
some lines on paper
a face in my head
a mark in my heart

with bloodshot eyes, baby
i watch the world go down
i sit right next to you
i’d still let you drown
with bloodshot eyes, baby
i watch the world explode
in a fabulous firework
our time’s just borrowed

so please tell me
what’s my purpose
how do i deserve this
my mind is stuck
running in circles
how can we solve this
everything you promised
everything you said, worthless

so please tell me
what’s my purpose
how do i deserve this?
why do you keep coming back
like if life’s just a circle
i wish i’d just forget you
the thoughts of you are worthless
all that’s left is a mark in my heart

so please tell me
what’s my purpose
how do i deserve this
my mind is stuck
running in circles
how can we solve this
everything that was
everything you said, worthless.

Sebastian

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